Why does life hand us a lemon, when what we wanted was a soft, juicy peach?

Last night one of my best friends got married. 5 minutes before her wedding was to start, Mitch came up to me and said He just got a phone call, his dad had a stroke! He left to be by his side and I made my way up the aisle to perform my duties as a bridesmaid and found myself in a daze all evening. As my beautiful friend and her new husband danced their first dance as husband and wife, I couldn't help but look at them and think of how this moment was going to stand in their minds forever as one of the best for them. Dancing, in love, nothing else on their minds but each other and how perfect everything was for them. What was far from their minds was how much their life could change and transform. That in ten years later they could be in my place or in another place that wasnt familiar to them. Facing new challenges and problems. Having the stress of children, families, finances, life in general. When we say "I DO" We are saying much than "yes I love you and take you forever" We are saying "I DO" to each other's families, each other's problems and weaknesses. Say YES to sharing a life with one another despite all the bad things that may come our way. What an overwhelming burden it can be!
How I envied their moment terribly. The freedom of having nothing to do but stare in each other's eyes and be in that moment. It broke my heart. I completely lost it. I broke down in a uncontrollable sob and cried like I hadnt cried in years. Im sure people thought "Someone needs to get that bridesmaid outta here!" I missed my husband being there, I was upset about my father in law. My mind was clouded with the trials of the day and I couldnt help but wonder "Is this how its supposed to be?" We start out in such a blissful state and then LIFE grabs a hold of us and pulls us in to its grasp. Life can be unfair, unjust, hard, unbearable, heartbreaking, sad, depressing, moody, and just plain rough. How do we learn to say "I DO" when we "DONT REALLY WANT TO"?
We dont want to have all the bad. We want the good. But isnt it the bad, that makes the good look so good?
After I watched Diana and her dad dance together to their song,Landslide by Fleetwood Mac. This thought put my mind at ease. Everything has a season and a reason. Sometimes we dont know the reason but we need to feel in our hearts that it is going they way it is supposed to go for us. The lyrics that stood out were...
"Oh, mirror in the sky
What is love
Can the child within my heart rise above
Can I sail thru the changing ocean tides
Can I handle the seasons of my life."

We will soon find ourselves at the end of many roads we have taken and wouldnt be nice that the road we finally take is home. Home to our Heavenly Father. Home to our family and friends there waiting for us.This life isnt permanant. It is only temporary. This life of trials and tribulations will soon end and then we can look back at this journey as an experience of our souls. That if we are lucky we get to live, love and laugh with those we call family.

Cravings...

Since I have been pregnant with this little one, I have had some interesting cravings. In the beginning I so sick I didnt want anything! But since I have been feeling better I crave one of the worst foods out there. A food I didnt even eat much of until recently and I cant get enough of...French fries. With lots of ketchup and lots of pepper on my ketchup. I hate that I want them any hour of the day and my favorite are McDonald's. They do have to best french fries. If only they weren't so bad for me:((
What are some of the cravings you have had while pregnant?

Happy Birthday Miss Quinny!

Happy Birthday to our lovely, beautiful, funny, sweet, caring, lovable, energetic, smart, wonderful, daughter! Oh how your life has blessed ours. We are so very grateful to have you my Quinn. You have brought so much happiness into our lives and into our family. I am very proud of the person you are becoming. I am proud of you for being such a sweet example to your little sister. I dont think a person can be as beautiful as you! We hope you have a great 6th birthday my dear:))

Tiny Dancer...

Our little Bryn had her first dance class today with Aunt Becky at Mann Dance. I took her yesterday to pick out her leotard and she picked the BRIGHT flourescent orange one. Not the pretty pink, purple or blue but the wildest colored one in the place! She even tried to get me to buy her some orange and black striped tights to go with it but I had to draw the line on that.
She was so cute in her class. She looked like she was having such a great time with the little girls in her class. Cousin Lacey is even in there with her:) She just seems so tiny to be dancing already!

In the famous words of a two year old...

"You gonna put your boobs on?"
Bryn finds it hilarious to wear my bra around the house. Nice.

I so excited...

Thats whats Bryn said as I was getting her out of her car seat this afternoon for preschool. She was so happy and she seemed to have waited so long for this day to come. She had seen Cal and Aubs come and go to school, she was now thrilled that it was her turn too.
When Mitch and I picked her up she was so happy and was full of energy. Not long though, did she pass out in the car and then slept for 2 hrs after. Mmmm. I may have to rethink the afternoon session next semester. I will see how she does when I go to put her to bed in awhile!
She wanted to pose in front of the same bushes and flowers that she had seen Aubrie pose in front of on her first day of school. Such a sweetie!

Coming out...

No I'm not gay...just pregnant! Again! I thought it was about time I officially post a blog about it. I guess I just figured everyone knew already but for those of you who didnt know, we are excited and a little freaked out. I mean come on, four kids. I can barely handle the three I have, I cant imagine having another little one to care for. But as of now things are looking well and I am due in February. Actually it will be born the week of the 15th sometime, whenever my Dr. does her csections that week.
I have been EXTREMELY sick and tired with this one and I am actually so happy it will be our last. You hear me people DO NOT ASK ME IF WE WILL HAVE MORE THIS IS IT!!
So here is to another bun in the oven:))

New Blog Name...

I have been wanting to change the title of my blog to something different. I am needing some help, any suggestions out there???I would appreciate any ideas or thoughts from you all that read my blog. Thanks:)