Struggling...

My blog has suffered this week because I have been suffering. Or maybe struggling. It has been a really rough week for me. I have been contemplating so many decisions. I have had to endure alot of new changes in my life this week and  to top it off, I often feel so overwhelmed with the kids. It is the hardest thing in the world, to be a good parent. Everything else in the world doesnt matter if I am not on my A game with my kids.  I find myself wishing everyday that I would have done this or that differently. Only because my kids deserve the best and if I am not giving them my best, then I just failed. And all too often I fail miserably.
So on top of being a crappy mom lately, I just feel off. Not myself. Not completely unhappy but not really knowing what to pinpoint as my unhappiness. I have this unsinking feeling inside me that I just cant seem to get rid of the past few days. So as I am sure you would just love to read about my depressing attitude, I will spare you this and promise to be back next week with some new, cute, witty or funny posts! Stay tuned, it does get better.