Deep Thoughts with ML...

I hope this doesnt embaress my sweetheart but this was posted on his myspace page in his "About Me" section and since we cancelled our pages I thought I would share it with my dedicated blogger readers. It is so Mitch and will give a glimpse into what kind of a person he is. He is honest, trustworthy, strong, sweet, romantic and the best father and dad ever! He has so much patience and such strong character of who he is. I admire him everyday and love that I am so blessed to have him. Not a day goes by that I dont feel this. I love you babe. Thank you for sharing this. It has given me much perspective on my own life.


Been thinking about this one. Not sure where to start. I am complicated i think. Sometimes too much. I love the moments when I have my priorities straight. That's when I am clear headed, content, optimistic, and truly happy. That's when I have God and my wife and my kiddos more important than anthing else. But I get this out of whack at times and pay for it by getting stressed, pessimistic, down, and preoccupied with stuff that shouldn't matter. OK, back to the first 3. When I am doing the right things with charity in my heart, I get prompted and nudged and the more I listen, the more I am prompted and nudged and I really feel I am living the life God has in store for me. That feels good, but I lose that feeling when I let my own interests and desires get in the way (too often), and then it feels like I am on this trip flying solo, even though I know God is in my life whether I realize it or not, but if I am ignoring His plan for me, then I am kinda flying solo. He lets me take the bumps and bruises I inflict on myself as I try to do what I think will bring me happiness. Sometimes I have a distorted idea of happiness. I guess that is because I used to be a really selfish person before I had my growing up experience, and the selfish side of me, I thought was long gone, but it can come back now and again, and I never would of imagined that it could have. Holly has known both sides of me; I remember when she actually kind of missed the old me, before I got baptized. I had grown so much and became so much more selfless and responsible, that it was quite a shock to her. Over eight years later I have grown even more, and have became so much more understanding and less judgmental and so much more accepting. I am the same person, but just more aware of things and feel more accountable for more actions because I feel my right and wrong list is longer than it used to be, and as I get older that list adapts and changes. I continue to grow, but take a few steps back now and then, I just gotta dust myself off and never give up! Holly. Oh Holly. My better Half! She truly is the sweetest, most beautiful woman on the planet! Seriously just last night looking at her smiling, I was in Heaven staring at the face of an angel. How I got so lucky, idk, I wonder that all the time. A guy like me doesn't deserve a gal like her! She has helped me grow a ton. We have some really fun moments, and still feel sparks all these years later. In fact, we feel more sparks, she's the DR. in my pepper. It is fun talking about old times with her, we have some good memories, then again, sometimes the old times make us cringe, we had some rough ones. But through all the rough times we've come out stronger and closer. I've put her through a lot, and hope that I never do again!!! Cal, the golden boy. He changed our lives 180 degrees. He came just as I had made a conscious effort to grow up. To reshuffle my priorities, to commit myself to Holly, to treat her the way she deserved. Just a short time after my historic change, bam, prego!! I remember that moment so well. I remember holding Holly and feeling so calm and ready, like a pillar of strength and comfort that Holly could cling to. I know she was worried that I would leave her, because it wasn't very long ago at all that I was Mitch, cool, fun, lovable, but so selfish and unstable. But like I said it was perfect timing, me getting my crap together, realizing what kind of woman I had! And realizing who I needed to be! PERFECT TIMING!! It was hard, we were young, but we survived, and we grew so close, and when Caleb came, it was the greatest moment of our lives. He is just special that way. He was the pure love of God in our arms for the first time, and he melted us two into one. I am teary eyed just writing this. And shortly after the gospel came into our lives, and I wanted to take the name of Christ on myself, and take MY family to the temple and be sealed together. It felt like the right thing to do, and I am sure it helped me keep those changes I had made more permanent, because I was on a good foundation then. To be continued.... Alright so that is the more serious part of me, on the lighter side, i'd say i am a deep thinker. I analyze just about everything. Hollz says i am smart that way, i'm not so sure if it is smart, but maybe. I love to laugh, and have a broad and deep range of humor. That can keep me going sometimes. But i have a sensitive side, i mean, i cry during movies, and get all mushy about my kids, and wifey, and family, and friends for that matter. Along that sensitive note, i can get my feelings hurt easy sometimes, but when that happens i usually get more angry than sad, and try to hurt whoever right back, i think cuz it is easier to do that, than say, cry about it. I know two wrongs dont make a right, or whatever, but thats me. I keep a journal, 99% of it is just writing down the latest stuff the kid's do and what my family is up to, so that I can remember later in life, cuz after a partied out highschool era, my memory isn't what it used to be. I am quiet in big groups of people, but in smaller groups I open up more, is that shy? I guess. I like to listen though, more than talk. And plus, I would rather be quiet and thought a fool, than speak and remove all doubt. so, i try to think about what i say before i say it, so that i dont sound like a fool, but actually i appreciate the people that just say what they think and don't care what other's think about it, to me i respect a person that is their self, and i am just being myself by being careful. To each their own! To be continued- Again.......