I had two very intersting-okay, not interesting but traumatic, horrible, rough , exasperating, frustrating experiences this past week. When is enough really enough? Does God really give us ONLY the trials we can handle? I have to answer that question as a NO! I think he gives us trials that we CAN'T handle, we just push ourselves to the limit to overcome those tough times and in the long run we do get stronger and gain more faith so that we can handle those unbearable times. But really I think I have met my tolerance on one of those Goliath's I have had in my life for some time now. I feel DEFEATED and HOPELESS...TRULY. I would like to think of myself as a strong person but maybe there are some trials in life we were not meant to overcome. So then what do we do then? Give up? Keep fighting? Honestly, I want to wave my white flag at this point. Surrender and accept defeat!
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Holly, I think everyone feels this way at some point. I don't know what your personal Goliaths are, but I do know that Heavenly Father really doesn't give us more than we can handle.
When we are so overwhelmed that we feel we can't go on, that's not Heavenly Father. I believe that's the adversary influencing us.
One of my favorite scriptures is in 1 Nephi chtr. 15, vs. 24. Anyway it says that the fiery darts of the adversary cannot overpower us when we hold fast to the word of God.
Sometimes in my life I have had to cling to that scipture with all my might. I've also found that when I really don't want to pray, I have to force myself. Sometimes it takes me weeks and even months to feel better. Heck, I have had entire years I'd like to erase!
I don't know if it helps at all, but we love you. When I struggle, I rely on the gospel and often the most help comes from friends and family. Feel free to call anytime. I'd love to hear from you.
call if you need to talk. it sounds like you might need your space otherwise i'd call you. hope you're ok. let me know if you need ANYthing.
I have to agree. I think we are givin trials to see what we do with them, whether we pass the test or fail. I have felt like that A LOT lately! Sean and I went to get our temple recommends renewed right after we got home from Alb. with Jayden. Pres. Bish is the one Sean interviewed with. Well anyways, he told Sean that now that we have "passed that test" with Jayden, we will be given more trials, harder trials. UGHHH!! I don't want more! I feel like I've had my share for a lifetime. But I know that's not what will happen. It's a good thing I can't see the future because I would probably run away and hide forever. But I did learn one great lesson with our trials with Jayden, and that is to NEVER give up. I don't think Jayden would be with us right now if we would have just given in to what was happening. I couldn't do it. I guess it comes from being a parent, we never give up on our kids. I don't know what you are going through and I don't pretend to even know what trials you have, but I want you to know that I think you are a strong person and whatever it is, you will be ok. Just don't loose your faith, no matter how hard things seem! And I'm available if you need to talk. Please don't hesitate to call me if you need an ear. I really appreciate you and your friendship.
I wish I didn't have a house full of kids so I could zip over to your house and be with you. I'm here, Holly. I love you and don't pretend to know how you feel but this much I can tell you. I support you and am behind you 100% no matter what. I'm not going to leave you stranded. You are stronger than you think you are and I know you will plow through this mess and come out of it--you'll be banged up and bruised for sure but you can do it. I thought of something I wanted to tell you so call me!!! Love ya
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Thank you all for your support and friendship1 I actually look up to all of you and I think you are all wonderful women and feel very honored to have such great ladies to call "my friends".
My answer to your question is- If I want something bad enough I NEVER give up on it, even if my challenge gives up on me. In other words i am stubborn and dilusional. It works for me...
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