Just a Thought...

Last night before bed, I looked at my sweet husband and told him "I couldn't imagine my life without you." And as I said these words the realization of death came into my heart and mind. That is the one thing we all have in common, we all will die. But when- No one knows. Death can seem like such a deep, scary thing. I guess because it is an unknown to us. I dont know anyone who has died and came back to tell us all about it. Sure, there have been people that claim this but did it really happen? I guess it made me think about what my life would be like without those that I love so much. I haven't lost someone close to me suddenly. My great grandmother was too young to have passed away 20 years ago, but I was very young when she did and so I cannot relate that with this. I am very blessed to have all of my grandparents alive and no one in our family has even passed away recently that I have been devastated by. To which I am very glad for!
I have to be the first to admit that I am scared of death. Not really me dying per say, but of losing those closest to me. I have been so touched to hear the story from Australia, about the 13 year old boy who gave his life so his brother could be saved out of the floods instead of him and his mother. They were swept away before they could be rescued. What a brave soul he was. He gave his life for his little brother. I can help but think of the little brother- ia his life going to be better that he was saved? He lost two people closest to him. He lost his mother. How could be saved have been a better option for him? What I think we need to look at isnt these numbing questions but the fact that his sweet brother gave his life, so his brother could have one. I hope that this little boy knows what a sacrifice his brother gave him. Because we only get ONE life and we must choose to make the most of it. No matter what our life circumstances may be and whatever life may throw our way.
I think what makes it all too surreal, is that we all know we can pass from this life and our life be over in the blink of an eye. I know that there is a God and a heaven. I believe in the Atonement of Jesus Christ, so should I still be afraid? I think being afraid, allows us to live our lives more fuller, more aware of the fact that I am grateful to be alive. To live and to be able to experience all that life has to offer.