Sore...

My body. I am feeling it right now. My poor knees are killing me and my behind hurts so bad. Every time I go to sit on the toilet, it hurts. I know you were just dying to know that:) But its true. Sitting, standing, laying down, it all aches. My chest and arms hurt and I swear even after I shower I smell like sweat. But its all good because I was finally was able to go back to the gym, since Carly turned 10 months old. (I think it so weird that kids have to be 10 months to be able to go to the nursery there.) Anywhoo, So its been a week of spinning, weights, treadmills and ellipticals and so far to date...5 pounds gone. In one week. Go me. I have been on a very strict diet but I havent been very hungry. Lots of lean proteins and veggies. Yum. Let me just say that I will be so happy to get out of this phase and have my oatmeal for breakfast again. A person can only eat so much eggs each morning before they make you want to puke. I have 9 more days to go. Each phase is 17 days long and there are four phases. In each phase you get to add more food to your diet. So on the next phase I get to have my grains back. Oh happy day. I have to say I feel so GOOD right now. At this very moment, I am still sitting in my sweaty clothes and I am a complete mess on the outside but on the inside I feel happy. I feel rejuvenated. Even after a grueling hour and half at the gym, I feel so at peace. I know I will hate it come tomorrow when more of the soreness will set in. But I dont care. Its worth it to feel the way I do about myself and how much more happier and healthier I feel. Its a trade off and I am CHOOSING this kind of lifestyle. No one is making me. Its all me, well except my trainer who doesnt let me say "I can't". I tried to say it today and she told me "Oh, but you can and you will" I love her. Jackie means so much to me. When I train with her, she brings out something that is deep down inside of me, something that I never knew exsisted in me. Its crazy- I know but she inspires me more than anyone ever has. Let me tell you about this gal. She was married for 16 years,had four kids when her husband was killed in a car accident. She raised her children by herself and has never remarried. She has lost two sisters and her mother to cancer. I look at this brave woman and cant help but admire her strength. Both physically and spiritually. She has changed my life in so many ways. Over the past few years she has become more than just my trainer but a dear friend.She is who has gotten me so into nutrition and exercise. Her stories and the drive she has make me realize that a person can do anything. As long as you have the drive and will to do it. You can. And I will.