Diets. I have been on one that I think just might do me in. I weighed in yesterday with my trainer and lost 5.4 lbs. in just a week and a half. But I seriously hate it. I am depressed. I am not sure whats more depressing- being strictly confined to a diet or being fat. I think I might choose to be fat. After the first two weeks, I can have fruit again so I am hanging on for dear life until Monday.
I consider myself to be healthy and choose healthy foods. But the weight wasnt coming off. I had to be extreme to see results. So I meet with Camera Palmer who is a dietician in my ward and also my Dr.'s niece. She suggested this diet that resets your insulin levels and jump starts your metabolism in 8 weeks to help your body lose weight easier. Yeah, there is nothing easy about this. I thought it was going to get easier but its only gotten harder for some reason. Boo.
I am just so sick of being in this body. This was not how I was supposed to be. I want to be my old self again. To have the luxury of working at Dairy Queen and eating whatever and still only be 130 lbs. In my dreams. Those days are long gone. I know this. But I still dont know why it has to be so HARD to lose weight. Really. Sine I started working out with Jackie a year and half ago I have lost 25lbs but it has taken me so long to get there. I just hope I can stay focused.
37 more pounds to go...
What are some battles you all have had with weight/food?? What are some goals you have?
6 comments:
Sugar is my weakness. If it is in my house, I eat it for breakfast, lunch and dinner. I have felt like if I lose five pounds, well it is right back on a month later. Hang in there! You will get there because you are so determined! I wish I could be as disciplined as you!
every time I start a new diet I get depressed...like clockwork, I think it's a natural response to the change but by the end of the first few weeks I have it down and feel loads better. My problem is sticking with something, I go in spurts and do really well but tend to push myself at a pace thats just not possible to keep up. My struggle is finding the balance.
I hate dieting! And that's pretty obvious! I need to loose soooo much weight! I think you are doing a great job! I wish I could have your determination. I want to join a gym and work out so bad, but the daycare thing is my problem. They won't take Jayden. So I have to wait until he's not so high maintance or when he starts preschool. I have learned that stress plays a huge roll in whether I loose weight or gain it. I have a lot on my plate right now, so I tend to gain weight. But I haven't lost hope. I still think I will eventually loose some weight, but probably NEVER to the size I was in high school.
I would really love to get more detailed information on the diet Camera suggested. Lately, I have really been struggling with blood sugar levels and just plain lack of energy. I agree with your friend Emily, balance is definitely my issue as well. Hang in there Holly! I know you can do this. By the way, 25 pounds is awesome!!! Pat yourself on the back, you deserve it!
You're getting there inch by inch (punny, huh!) but oh how we wish it was foot by foot. The frustrating thing is when the results we want take so long to happen. I quit obsessing about it a long time ago and am focusing on finding joy in my life hoping that everything else will fall into place. Sometimes I think we put off allowing ourselves to be happy and content with who we are "until..." when I wonder if maybe we just relaxed and enjoyed our journey a bit more that we would eventually evolve into what we have been hoping for all along. Does that make since?
You should be so proud of yourself for 25 pounds!! I just recently put on about 20 pounds myself and it is quite frustrating. It just doesnt come off as easily as it used to huh? But I try to stay positive and just get to the gym more often. Sounds like you are way more motivated and determined than I am. Good for you!!! Dont get down on yourself!
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